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Eleven Months Without My Will

August 12, 2007

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5 Responses to “Eleven Months Without My Will”

  1. Anonymous says:

    I feel sad for you as
    I feel sad for myself
    the father that lost his son and
    the son who lost his father.
    uncle Chuck

  2. pamela says:

    I miss him so much, Mike.

    Interesting that I couldn’t sleep last night either, until I posted about my strong nephew. Afterward, I looked through all of my pictures and fell asleep remembering.
    Then, this morning I saw your post and was overwhelmed by how deeply you must feel it.

    I think you were the one that told me that I had to risk the pain to feel that love. Easier to say than experience, you know? It’s true, though, and I know I wouldn’t trade it, because I love still feeling Will when I see a picture of him on my shoulder.
    I am overwhelmingly grateful for the time that I got to know your son, Mike.

  3. What a beautiful tribute to such a beautiful son.

  4. Kelsey says:

    Mike & Stac…that was really very beautiful. Part of a poem by Anna McKenzie:

    We, without a future,
    Safe, defined, delivered
    Now salute you God.
    Knowing that nothing is safe,
    Secure, inviolable here.
    Except you,
    And even that eludes our minds at times.
    And we hate you
    As we love you,
    And our anger is as strong
    As our pain,
    Our grief is deep as oceans,
    And our need as great as mountains.

    So, as we take our first few steps forward
    Into the abyss of the future,
    We would pray for
    Courage to go places for the first time
    And just be there.
    Courage to become what we have
    Not been before
    And accept it,
    And bravely to look deep
    Within our souls to find
    New ways.

    We did not want it easy God,
    But we did not contemplate
    That it would be quite this hard,
    This long, this lonely.

    So, if we are to be turned inside out,
    And upside down,
    With even our pockets shaken,
    Just to check what’s rattling
    And left behind,
    We pray that you will keep faith with us,

    And we with you,
    Holding our hands as we weep,
    Giving us strength to continue,
    And showing us beacons
    Along the way
    To becoming new.

    We are not fighting you God,
    Even if it feels like it,
    But we need your help and company,
    As we struggle on.
    Fighting back
    And starting over.

  5. el mol says:

    beautiful and heartbreaking. thinking of you tonight.

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