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Brighter Skies, Take 2

February 1, 2007

My man Ryan read a post a while back, and responded by writing a song. Which was not only flattering, but enlightening, as well.

Where I tend to hint at scary things obliquely, Ryan walks right over and embraces fearful truths. Where I would feel God’s silence or God’s distance, but not dare to admit it, my friend just opens all of that messiness up for me to see and sing and own.

I was talking about all of this the other night, gathered with a group of folks from church to get to know each other better and help one another down the path. I was talking about how I used to offhandedly throw out the line, ‘if you’re feeling far from God, it’s not because He’s moved!’, but how recent events have left me wondering about the accuracy of that statement. Because, to my recollection, I haven’t gone anywhere, but God seems to have. I haven’t stopped asking him questions, but he’s not answering them. And as I was talking about all of this, about my intention to find a way to wait for God, hoping that he’d “come back to me,” I suddenly realized that I might be a little misguided. I might be rushing things. Maybe it is kindness and love and mercy and grace that is behind his silence and distance. Maybe God knows that his presence would be too painful just now.

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3 Responses to “Brighter Skies, Take 2”

  1. kate says:

    I thought that was a really amazing insight.
    It reminded me of this, which I once had framed, and which you’ve probably seen before:

    http://www.actsweb.org/god_silent.php

    but I don’t think I ever thought about it the way you described it. Maybe, sometimes the reality of God (even as much as we can ever grasp of it) is just too much?
    Anyway, thanks.

  2. LOVE the lyrics. Has he recorded it?

  3. Jill Roberts says:

    Hi,
    Don’t know if you remember me or not…but met you at the Gathering Retreat. This blog hit home for me with what we also went thru with our son. I never had thought of God’s lack of presence as grace & mercy to me and that it would just be too much to bear if I was dwelling in His presence. Thank you for your honesty.

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