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Two Juxtapositions

October 4, 2006

1. Yesterday, the mail carrier delivered two bills. One is for the deductible at the Hospital for Sick Children (50K in treatment for 500 bucks seems a pretty good deal…). The other is the final bill for the funeral. I’m not feeling any particular stress about them; they were expected and we have the funds available. I’m just thinking that there must be something poignant about getting them both in the same day, and I can’t think of what it is.

2. I think about my son’s life and death constantly. Especially those last hours we spent with him, and the hours we spent with his body. Yet, at the same time, I’m beginning to forget details about him. His muscles and bones, his sounds, his smells, and his appearance are beginning to fade. The pain remains, but the good memories are getting fuzzy. People say that I’ll forget some of the more difficult stuff, and remember more of the happy times, but honestly, I don’t want to forget any of it right now.

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3 Responses to “Two Juxtapositions”

  1. Brad Huston says:


    You’re grief has become mine. After reading about the accounts of your son’s death, I wept as I haven’t done so in months.

    Praying for you and that Christ will lift you and your wife up in the midst of your loss and that this trial will bring you to a deeper, richer and fuller understanding of him and God’s grace.


  2. Anonymous says:

    I am so sorry for your son’s death. I have found your blog and had been following his progress. Mayb God bless you all.

  3. Amy says:

    My brother, Brett, met you in New Mexico and mentioned your loss in his blog. I googled you – do you feel violated? lol

    I’m sorry for your loss. We lost our son at 8 mos old…total surprise. Working out that loss – as well as some other big turning points in our life – has been life-altering. Not only do I view the world differently…but my faith has changed incredibly.

    I look foward to reading more at your blog.


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