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May 24, 2006

I’m really too exhausted to write, but the danged audioblogger is apparently defunct. In fact, I posted twice today, but they both disappeared, I guess. And now, Picasa is taunting me. Just another thing I wish I could control, but can’t. In the midst of a couple of crying jags this week, I realize how frustrated I get with things, and with God. It’s not that I’m mad at God… it’s just that I’d like to direct a few events, and prevent a few others. For myself, naturally, but also for others. But of course, this is impossible. It is, however, possible for God, though he seems to choose to avoid that kind of control. So when everything hits the fan, who can I go to but him?

So I’m sure I resemble my daughter, who will simultaneously embrace and push away from her only source of sustenance.

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  1. Anonymous says:

    Ah, Mike, you’ve been through an emotionally and physically exhausting few weeks–I think your frustration is totally understandable. I can’t imagine the ups and downs of your life right now. But I do know what you mean about going everywhere but to God when you’re under stress. I’m the same way most of the time. It’s hard to stop worrying, stop thinking. Sometimes just a simple physical action, like lighting a candle, helps me focus on the moment. Virtual hugs to you and Stacy and Ella and Will.

    Erin B.

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