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The Labyrinth

August 9, 2005

I hate moving. Gets me all surly and testy, and forlorn. Now it looks like we’ll need to leave this sweet little cozy spot which we moved to about 6 months ago. The thing is, I was surly and testy and forlorn when we moved here, and now I love it. It has awakened a sense of hospitality in me, which I guess I never explored before. But something about the place and the setting and situation just makes me say to everyone, “come on over!” And for some weird reason, they have done just that. And for even weirder reasons, these guests have energized and excited me. So much so, that I’m fairly depressed to think about moving back to some small apartment (which used to provide a very happy, cozy place to hide from the world).

I guess it raises a few questions. The first of which is, “why do I need to move? I just got here, and haven’t even unpacked yet!” (which is actually more of a whine than a question). But the better question is, “why awaken an interest which will likely find very little expression in the near future?”. It just doesn’t make sense to me.

I was looking for some old document on the computer the other day, and saw the text of an email which I wrote about 9 months ago. I had just quit my job (and my cozy apartment), and likened the change to heading into a Labyrinth. Which is a kind of worshippy maze which one travels as an aid to prayer and contemplation. This morning, I was thinking that I might be headed back out of the labyrinth. But the more I think about it, the more it seems that these twists and turns and (apparent) dead ends are all a part of the journey.

Which really stinks.

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2 Responses to “The Labyrinth”

  1. sonja says:

    So … I’m amazed to hear that you are just exploring the gift of hospitality. You and Stacy are naturals. Which means that where ever you are, you will be able to continue to do this. We will come visit no matter where you live … because we’re coming to spend time with you, not your place. I’d venture to say that most people are too.

  2. kate says:

    Easy for me to say… but I just keep thinking, no matter where you go next, you’re really gonna look back on the move and say, “Thank GOD we did that right when we did.” That it will be a good thing. There’ll probably be a lot of blindly bumping around in the dark for awhile, but you’ll get a grip on just the right thing at just the right time.
    And, I second that motion that you can’t KEEP us away! ;)

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